“We call ourselves friends for a reason; After today I don’t know the definition…”
Yes, this is my rant-of-the-day. I have been struggling with this for sometime. How does someone who is your “best friend” that you have lived with for the past four years – been through hell and back together suddenly turn their back on you because they are in pursuit of a new dream of a life with a new man? I mean, honestly, isn’t it possible to still maintain friendships when you are in a relationship? And just because they are now in a “relationship” does that mean its ok for them to become callous and just plain mean toward you because they think that somehow impresses their their significant other…or maybe it’s because they suddenly think they’re “better than”? I mean obviously, the dynamics of your friendship is going to change. We’re no longer two single chicks runnin amuck in the city on a saturday night. (We moved past that years ago…) I just feel so lost, and baffled, and genuinely hurt by this persons indifference and lack of any consideration toward me. And when is it ok to suddenly start lying to your “best friend” or feeling you have to be censored because you now have a boyfriend?
I’m just feeling a little lost. We’ve made the decision to go our separate ways. In (30) days we will be moving into our own apartments (though we’ll be in the same building.) I know it sounds like baby steps but I think it’s actually a giant leap for both of us. I have never lived fully on my own without a roommate. I am scared, happy, excited, anxious…you have NO idea! lol But, honestly, more than anything I am just hoping it will salvage what little friendship we may still have. It’s pathetic when you live in the same house as someone and you don’t even speak. I’ve tried talking to her, tried making things right, tried pointing out why I feel the way I do and its only met with eye-rolls, “Whatever”(s), “You’re never happy”, etc. etc. I never have my feelings validated. So…I’ve decided to stop trying. I figure if it’s not important to her for us to remain close…well the best way to say it is, “Never make someone a priority when to them you are just an option.”
I just miss my friend.
From Within 